so much has happened since i was last up here...
first, i had to leave my moms house, and move in with my dad full time.
then, me and my dad moved out of his girlfriends house, and into our own apartment. now, after a whack of family therapy, im living with my mom again, as well as my dad. just like we all planed...
in the heat of all that, me and someone extreamly special to me were going through some really hard times. caused by my own imaturity, and selfishness...
sadly, we didnt manage to work things out as well as i did with my family.
not a day goes by that i dont wish i had seen earlier how utterly stupid i was being.
now, as a result of all this past summers events, i have been making some much needed, and verry welcome changes to my life. i have now quit smoking (cigarettes and pot as well as all other drugs. this also means no more drinking, other than maybe a small glass of wine with family on special ocasions.

it feels really great to be sober, finally i can think properly. also, its great to not be turning to drugs, or smoking when i feel like shit, it all feels real now.